Thursday, June 19, 2014

Questions: Round 2

What do you do when you can't find the motivation to work towards something you've dreamt about all your life? How do you deal with the panic and subsequent complacency? How do you push yourself to stop mucking around and get to it? How do you aspire to not disappoint EVERYONE who has SO much faith in your abilities, when you don't think you're much? I'm not the writer I used to be. I'm not the designer I thought I was. I'm not as smart as everyone thinks I am. Sure, book smart is easy. But I'm not much else beyond that. I'm not as creative as was once perceived. I have dreams, but no will to aspire. I have aspirations but no reason to go with the motivations. I have motivation, but no desire and no sense of purpose. 20 days before my General Record Exam. How am I going to do this? Am I worth all the money my father is wasting away on me? Is any of it worth it?